Reflections...

So, I have been trying to decide what to write for awhile now.  It is difficult because my life has been at a bit of a stand still since I have been back in Southern California.  I still feel like it was the right decision, and I am a lot happier; but I don't now exactly why it was the right decision.  Maybe that confirmation is still in the future.  I hope that it gets here soon though!

I have been substitute teaching since October.  I did it for a year and a half before I moved to Utah, but it was still scary to jump back into it.  I have made a lot of contacts at my Mom's school; I sub there most of the time.  I work at a few other schools when I really need the work, but I am not known anywhere else.  The biggest thing that subbing has done for is that it has allowed me to considered a current employee of the district in which I would really love to teach.  So, when there was a posting on Edjoin for current employees only I was able to apply.

Unfortunately it was for an eligibility pool.  Which means they anticipate having to hire next year, but they have no idea when they will start or how many jobs there will be.  I am pretty nervous about the whole situation.  As the school year winds down, after spring break, there will be fewer and fewer opportunities to substitute teach.  Most of the district is on a traditional track, so the summer will be really tight financially.  All of my prayers are about having enough money to pay my bills and getting a job lined up by summer.

That is my life right now...waiting to hear about job possibilities.  I am in a single's ward.  I haven't made any friends there. They are all very young and I am sort of waiting to age out.  I turn 31 in June and will have to make a decision to either try this ward in Riverside that is a mix of a family ward with a singles class, or I will be going to church with my family.  My Mom asks why I am waiting to try out the other ward.  I guess it is because I don't have to yet.  In June, I will be forced to make the decision; but right now I don't have any real motivation to do it.  I don't enjoy going into new, unknown situations; and meeting a ton of new people at once isn't exactly my favorite thing either.  Ah, the life of an introvert!

As I reflect upon my first year in my thirties, I have discovered a few things.  The first being that life is boring when you are stuck in limbo.  I have also learned that once you turn thirty losing weight is way more difficult, so is dieting when you are living with other people.  I lost a good deal of the progress that I made over the last two years.  Even when I think that I am doing really good, I don't end up losing anything.  Jack, my beagle, and I have started walking everyday.  We have been walking for over a month.  We go anywhere from 4-5 miles per day.  It is good for Jack because he has much better behavior on the days that we go for walks.  I just hope that I start to see the benefits!