I was a little stressed and overwhelmed tonight, so I decided to update the old blog. I am sure that most of the followers have long since given up on updates...but I still need to vent now and then; so I will continue to post.
I have been teaching the fourth grade for about five months now. It has been a very difficult year. I tell people that I am in boot camp. It feels like I got the toughest class possible for my first year of teaching. I just have to make it to the first week of June. I have low readers, low math, resource students, and a ton of behavior problems in the class. I just try to get through it. I look forward to my second year of teaching, which others tell me is a lot easier.
Life has been difficult in other areas as well. I am experiencing a lot of firsts this year. My first permanent job (in my chosen career), my first car (that I own myself), my first apartment (that is not on a college campus and that I am paying for myself), and my first experience with actual bills. When you add to that the fact that I didn't know a soul when I moved to this new state; it seems a little overwhelming. Then you can add the fact that moving isn't as easy as packing up and leaving the state. You have to declare residency in the new state, tell the old state that you have left, register your car, get a new licence, and tell the old state that you are registered in the new state. I failed to do a few of the above and am now praying that the form that I am putting in the mail tomorrow gets there quickly. I also pray that I won't have to pay penalties.
So this brings us to tomorrow...Tomorrow someone from the district is coming to watch me teach a guided reading lesson. I am not looking forward to this. I am perfectly comfortable being in front of my class; when you add an another adult to the mix, I tend to get VERY nervous. Plus, I get to experience this all over again when my principal observes me teach in a few weeks.
As you can see, I have lots of things on my mind right now. I need a mental break!!! I updated my blog in the hopes that writing down some of my stresses might help me sleep tonight. I am sorry if the spelling and grammar are not perfect. This is supposed to be stress relieving, so I don't want to have to worry about the little things. In the meantime, I will keep telling myself that I cannot change the things that are out of my control. All that I can do is work with the things that I can change.
As a final request, if any of my former followers are still out there...pray for me. I need it!
