Revelations

Sometimes life doesn't turn out the way that you expect it to. You look back on friends that you thought you once knew, and you find that never really knew them at all. Or maybe they just changed...I don't know...It's been a day of revelation for me. Not necessarily in a good way either. Believe me when I say, that whoever is reading this post...My revelation was not about you. It was about someone who isn't on my friends list yet, but I should probably add them...Seeing how they are changing so quickly. By the time I catch up with them again they will probably be unrecognizable. It sounds like I'm rambling...I don't make any sense...That doesn't matter...I know what I am talking about. I just needed to write some things down.

I applied for graduation this week. Everything is on track for a December graduation. Although, it turns out that my advisor forgot to turn in some paperwork regarding my minor...And they don't have any record of me having one. So, I had to go fix that stressful problem this week. Everything is still on track though, and that is all that matters. I also found out that one of the required classes I have to take in the Fall is a one block class at 8am. It was a 10am , but for some reason the teacher decided to change it. Man, I was looking forward to a low stress semester for my final semester at BYU-Idaho. Oh well, what can you do?

This week was another slow one. I went to Idaho Falls with Audra to pick up her ring...It was being cleaned. This week we are having her bridal shower. If anyone has any gift ideas...Post them please! I also need ideas for party favors to give the guests. Any help would be appreciated. This week will be a little stressful for me. It is the last week of classes before finals. So teachers will be trying to get in as much information as possible. On Wednesday I am going to take one of my finals...So I have to study a lot before then. We are also holding the shower on Wednesday. On Thursday I have a group presentation in my American Humanities class. Plus I have an essay that I need to do before the end of the semester as well. Plus, there is the whole ordeal of packing up my stuff, doing my white-glove, shipping stuff home, and catching my ride to the airport. Throw in finals too, and you have my life for the next two weeks.

Time for me to get serious again. I have been thinking a lot about what I am going to do after graduation. I mean, right now the plan is that I will earn some money and then get my teaching credentials. After I graduate I have to enter the real world. I am going to need a job with good benefits and insurance. I am going to have to start worrying about things like that. I will be on a deadline on when I need to grow up and get my own place. I can't live at home forever. I don't know how long it will take me to earn enough money though. Ideally, I will get married in the near future and some of that stuff won't be so up in the air...But I'm not counting on that happening any time soon so...Yeah. I am also worried about what it will be like when I go home for good. My best friend, Bethany, is moving on with her life (I still love ya, but it's true). I can see her falling for guys, making new friends...And I guess I am starting to see that I won't fit into her life the same way that I used to. In spite of that, I still expect to be the maid-of-honor when she finally ties the knot (that was to you Beth ;)...) I have been away for so long that I don't know what to expect when I go back. I feel sort of lost. I guess I will have to see how this summer goes...Maybe then I will know where I stand with the rest of my life. I hope you are all doing well...I'm not depressed or anything...I'm just having a moment. Stay happy and be safe!